I Can't Push Me To The Side
Often times us mothers, daughters, or overseers, lose ourselves. Some might stop eating healthy, going to the gym, dancing, singing, writing, or anything that resembles things they love. After a while, we become unhappy because we are not living in the full potential that God has created for us. Living this way can make you bitter and resentful, which we've learned from previous posts, makes for a toxic environment. You find yourself staring in the mirror thinking, how did I get to this place? The reflection of something that looks something like you, however, isn't you. It is a sad place to be, I once was there and I wasn't really happy internally. I felt this void, that nothing wasn't fulfilling. Even though I was reading scriptures, I was reading out of a habitual manner, not really focusing on the words and the manifestation of the words. When I say this it's because the bible teaches love. The whole bible revolves around love and the power of love. If I was applying the bible correctly I would of understood that includes loving me. That I am truly not effective, If I am not emotionally, mentally or physically stable.
That it is not being selfish saying yes to me and no to others. In fact, some no's are healthy. Saying yes to everything will eventually wear you down. Even, Oprah and Beyonce' has had to refuse some engagements or said no once in a while. I have watched interviews of them stating so. The power of loving one self controls how people will treat you and respect you. I've learned through my years of putting me last, that the person who use to think so highly of me, learned to disrespect me and not hold me to the standards they once did. Don't get me wrong, it won't happen over night and eventually the people who were counting on your naive ways will be appalled. They will, not only be afraid of your new found strength, but they would resent the fact that they can't take advantage of your selfless ways. Love always includes you and if you love yourself, then you would make sure that you're good. Even in the airplane they explained to you before take off, that you must put your mask on first, then help others. Why? If you don't you would die trying to save someone. Wow! That is deep and a powerful example of why we must come first. Please hear me out I'm not talking the tangible things, even though us mothers have a way of going shopping for us, and we end up going shopping for our children. I am talking about from a inner place that ends up surfacing outwardly.
I look at this scripture from (Mark 12:31 The second is this: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' There is no commandment greater than these.) He is saying this because he is expecting you to love yourself whole heartily, enough that you can love someone else the same. Somehow, this has been misconstrued and we are loving others more than ourselves. So, if you've been putting off eating right and working out stop. Putting off writing that book stop. Putting off dancing or reading your favorites books like you use too, then stop. You have to be emotionally stable to truly enjoy your life in this includes loving you!
I think about Jesus and how he would go by himself to pray and meditate, that was his way of refueling and taking time for himself. Now, if Jesus did this, then you know it is suppose to be done.(Luke 5:16 But Jesus often withdrew to lonely places and prayed) I love how the bible has everything we need to live a healthy balanced life. I pray that you will be encouraged and inspired to DO YOU. I use to be the person who lived like this but now I am loving the person who God revealed to me, I have always had these qualities, strengths, and love for myself. I just never tap deep to unveil me, the happy, fulfilled, balanced me.
Find time to do the things that please you. Learn to take time for yourself and stick to it. Like, I wanna lose weight, actually, I lost a lot of weight since my husband's death. The truth is I want a six pack. It is possible, so I get up at 5 am, to workout. I find the time and make the sacrifice. Us, caregivers and overseers have to learn how to manage our time. Even, if it takes us out of our comfort zone. To be honest this new you will have to step into unfamiliarity to become this self loving new you. Remember this scripture (Philippians 4:13 I can do all things in Christ who strengthens me)
AFFIRMATION: I love me! I have to put me first! I am balanced and will enjoy my life!
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