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In The Midst

As the world turns and situations occur you have a choice. You can either let God take control or you can let your emotions take control. As easy as one might think, it is so easy to let your feelings and emotions reign. You get this feeling in your gut and your emotions start to fester and you feel like if you don't react or respond that your intestines will bust. Like, your body literally takes control over you if you let it. Personally this battle has been just that a battle. I am very out spoken and must be heard, however, I have learned that my peace is so much more better than being heard sometimes. The situation has already occurred and my wrong reaction can make matters worst. I think about my sister's death this summer and how angry I get when I think about her life being cut short and people are in their feelings because of their family member's ignorance. How the world is filled with rage and hate and its incapability to really love or have compassion. How my baby sister's daughter has to be raised by her father because of ignorance and demonic influence.

The flesh wants to take on all the perpetrators and their families too. It wants them to feel the pain my mom and family feels. Then I have to ask myself, is that really what you want? To become the hate and ignorance that is festering in this world. Then, conviction hits me because I am filled with Holy Spirit and I can hear him whisper pray for them and love on them. For if they were filled with the Holy Spirit the tragedy would not have occurred. The battle of within is real and somebody will win. I get why Paul talked about doing the things he wants to do and actually the things he ends up doing.( Romans 7:15) He was an Apostle filled with power, the fact is we are human and the human nature is to deal accordingly to the flesh but you have become a whole new creature when you said yes to God. Give it to him, yes, even when it hurts. I know first hand about betrayal and pain that hurts so much that you don't wanna go another day. The fact is you can't live like that then it becomes a repeated cycle of affliction. Somebody has to stop the cycle! I choose to be that somebody! I choose to let God in and lead me.

I will never hug, argue, or love on my baby sister again in the physical and day by day I will learn to live with that reality. However, hate, bitterness, and grief can't control me. As long as I have breath in my lungs I have purpose. I will be the poster child for God's grace, besides he has a way of avenging for you. He said the battle is his and not yours.

Let this be the day you let go and let God. Call on Jesus it is power in his name. Know that he can avenge for you. I can't lie I am holding back the tears as I write this but I know my sister is where we will all be soon. I know that her daughter must learn the essentials to live in love or she will grow to become bitter. I have to continue to fight for the cause of Love and Living In Love! Jesus said out of all the commandments and precepts that God has give, Love is the most important! (Matthew 22:36-40) 

The world is missing LOVE!

AFFIRMATION: I WILL LOVE YES EVEN WHEN IT HURTS!!

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